Since being in LA, I feel like I haven’t had enough time to explore.  Every time I’ve wanted to go, I get this guilty feeling that I should be working.  Freelancing is stressful. If you aren’t working, you feel like you have to  do something because you don’t know how long it will be in between jobs.  This weekend, however, was the first time I fully let go.  We went to Malibu to a small beach where we  climbed over tall rocks to get to our own private cove! Seafood, Barking Seals and Sunsets.. and to top it off, all of our stuff completely soaked by the incoming tide.  Perfect? Yes. 

Earlier this week, an old friend stopped by and the girls and I went to Griffith Observatory.  I couldn’t stop imagining James Dean walking around while filming. 

So all in all.. a fun week..

Ok.. so the story is.. I am finally settled into Los Angeles and making some friends.. The reason for the lack of updates is that I’ve been busy and had a lack of money.  I thought I lost this film but I found it in the back back back of folders and now here it is.  Sorry. More to come but I am off to have fun.

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After some headshots, I was able to spend 10 minutes photographing Kai.  We worked together on the short film I just finished.. So after all of that hard work, it was nice to be able to get some candid shots of him.  

So this is one of the reasons I have been too busy to put anything on this thing.  I’ve been working a short film as a co-dp, and here is a sample of what’s to come.  Also, I’m doing more headshots and I have an upcoming burlesque teaser.  I can’t wait to shoot this!  

You know when really strange things happen and it’s just too weird to even think it’s coincidence?  That happens a lot.  Last week I had a dream about my grandmother which led me to feel bad about how I hadn’t kept in contact with her.  I live far away from home, so when I go home once a year.. if that.. I tend to spend so much time with my immediate family.  And sometimes it’s hard to drive the 5 hours to visit my grandparents.  And it’s always made me sad to think that I have never been that close to that side of my family because of it.  Every year I mean to write to my grandma.. and every year I’m too busy.  So after that dream, I decided to really write her.  I went online to see if I could find old photos of her and found the one above from her senior year of high school in Childress, Texas.  Then on Monday morning, I got a call from my mom telling me that she had passed away a few days ago.  I think the reason it hit me so hard was because of all of this regret.. and regret for not asking more questions than I did.. and of not knowing much about her life.. I never knew that she basically raised her younger siblings.  I didn’t know that caught the kitchen on fire one day while making dinner and how she calmly went to the neighbor for help.  I didn’t know that she had gone to college.  I know even less about my grandfather..  I don’t usually get very personal with this blog because it’s more for artistic inspiration than some diary.. but in way this is inspirational in wanting to piece together my family.  I think this happens as you get older, appreciating where you come from.  I also have a fear that when I get older, I will have no memories and no answers.  I’ve often thought about putting my life into a timeline so I can remember.. but I think that’s going too far.

Inspired by the French Canadian film Heartbeats.. love love love..

Hard work for new promo cards.  I am so happy with the end product!! Hopefully I can send these off to more editors next week.